Shaman and Chief and Leader

Date: 5/21/2022

I dreamed I was the leader of a band of rebels or outcasts. We were with associated the goblins at one point but that was a while ago. We were humans and we all incidentally had magic powers. I was a guy. Born without magic or so I thought. I took the leader path, the soldier or warrior path. Though we lived in a sort of modern city we had to walk the old ways. But later in life, soon after the dream began, I found I could do magic. In fact I sat down one day and rewrote the entire magic system we uses. I wasn't just naturally gifted in magic, I was able to see everything, all of it, and use it. I rejected this thing. I didn't want the title of chief or shaman. I was a leader. It was enough. In the dream we'd already seen how a shaman was made, they went through a ceremony. They were tested then recieved the title and ability or allowance to do magic. The government broke into our little home, underground or in an abandoned place. It might have been goblins who were the government, sometimes they looked like goblins, other times they looked like perfectly human humans. So I don't know. I just know we were other. They rounded us up and began to assign us magic. We didn't get all our magic gifts at once, we only got one. I picked one, then at the last minute changed to a different one in the list. Something regarding dreams. A power to do with dreams. #48 The first one I picked was #40. Then they found my notes on magic and changing the magic system. I'd sorta abandoned them. I was going to go back but I wasn't ready to admit I was a shaman. I was a leader, a warrior, I didn't have time to be shaman too. But I'd left them out and the government came and saw them. They then locked me in a room to undergo my shaman trial. They wanted to control the magic really bad. I was being forced to it. If they unlocked my shaman ability, they could hijack my ritual to change the magic system, but put them in control. My people got away. I was left with them, in some institute for a few days. I hid, got out, made allies and friends. Found a room full of ice and found out we'd been connected to this ice room, not just the other magic rooms. Apparently the gov had rooms in each magic. I'd hung out mostly in the one where you talked to animals. But the ice one was interesting. You could scry through ice, like it was a TV. I got away. It was hard. I ended up in the parking lot out side the institution and my people rescued me. But they weren't happy. I'd lied, kept something sacred secret, rejected the powers and now they were being used against us, to control us. They felt I'd betrayed them. My girlfriend was mad with me. I avoided her. We weren't broken up, just not talking. My ex came to talk, she was there from a different far away clan. We sat in an old abandoned vehicle, one left to the elements so just bones. She was into me but I fell asleep during her long speech about it. But she wore a nice dress to see me and it was significant to everyone and they assumed I'd cheated cause I happened to be with her all night. It was a fucked up reputation I had, no one wanted to believe anything I said. ~ It's worth noting there was a goblin/human woman, and old lady, working on her own machinations behind the scenes. She was with us, and the gov offered her to take out the human DNA. But she'd put it there on purpose - the human DNA (she was also a genius) and she wanted it for a reason so she turned them down. She was also famous among them, and wanted for crimes. I think she was hiding as a halfling to escape punishment. She was guilty however, of maybe genocidal crimes.