Peter Pan the Musical

Date: 3/31/2019

I was in a big musical and I was the lead. I think I was Peter Pan. Anyway, we were making our costumes and I remember talking to someone about how excited I was, and how I was only a little nervous. WELL... that changed real fast. All of a sudden we were about to preform. Instead of us being on a stage, we were sitting in theater chairs (like where the audience would sit) I don't know where the actual audience was, but I knew they were watching us. I was on the very edge of the row on the right side. To the left was my best friend, Kurt from Glee. He was also in the musical and I think he had a decent part. To the left of him was Mrs.Stamper. she was the director of the musical and she was giving me a pep talk. I was absolutely freaking out. I was the LEAD of a musical and I couldnt sing AT ALL. I also couldn't remember a single one of my lines. There was a tiny voice in the back of my head saying, "come on, you got this part for a reason! You're amazing!" But I wasn't listening to it. Mrs.Stamper kept saying that I need to breathe and I would do amazing. She said that I was gonna be a star. While all this is happening, the story teller girl has already stood up and started talking and singing. I knew that I was up next. I was crying and begging Kurt to do it for me. I was pleading with him but he kept saying no. I couldn't do it. Right when it was my turn, I got up and ran. I knew he would take over, and he did. Before he did though we had a conversation right in front of the audience as I walked out the door. It went something like- " God Kurt thank you so much. I'm sooo sorry." He was clearly aggravated but he said, "it's okay, just go!" And as I left out the door I'm like, "I love you." Just to make sure he wasn't mad at me, but he didn't say it back. The audience was impatient so they clapped when he took over for me. I was super embarrassed. I left and went outside. Mom wasn't supposed to pick me up until after the show, but I didn't want her to know that I backed out. So I decided to walk to walmart, alone, at night, in the dark. As I was walking, I realized that I was still wearing my Peter Pan hat. But it was actually an elf hat made out of construction paper. I just left it on, even though it probably made me look extra rapeable. I got to walmart and began walking around while texting me mom. I ran into Baron from church and he asked what I was doing. He started making fun of me for walking around with my nose in my phone. So I wanted to make him feel bad. I said that I was trying one last time to find a ride home before I resorted to walking. He didn't get it though. He just kept making jokes about my phone. I wanted to get it through his head that it was dark outside and I could get get KIDNAPPED! But he just didn't care. Then I woke up.