Disney Whoretown, Triggering Doughnuts.

Date: 11/8/2016

I was in a hospital, visiting, it might have been a cross between a hospital and a school. My mother lived there, and we were there with another female and we were happy. The other female was pregnant, but still with a flat belly, we all lounged on the bed with the cat. I talked to her belly. I sang to her belly. It was a peaceful time we knew wouldn't last. My mom got herself a checkup over the phone, but really was giving them all of my information. I didn't notice at first until she had them xray my foot, threw this new tech kiosk. Then I realized that I was really sick and needed it, even tho it was sneaky of her. Next my grandparents came. They took some of my months things, and told me to come with them. I could have defied them, but I threw on a persona instead. A bored rich snobby one and put my staff (yes I had this magical magician staff, oddly) in the car and got in. I think insulted my mom in that bored voice. But I was really just trying to keep the female who was pregnant hidden from them. She was incredibly important to me. The scene where I got I to the car sliding the staff in, saying that line, it happened twice, in perfect repetition. It often happens I relive parts of my dreams, but it usually is the ending, this was just one very small piece. In the car my grandparents drove off in a odd car to a land of Disney houses. It was a Disney town, all the houses were bright colors and perfect, the car was driven though the power of your breathe through this harmonica thing. If you blew left it would go right, if you blew right it would go left. My grandfather, his personality became that of a crazy inventor, and he blew odd ways on purpose. Occasionally the car fell over, or crashed into houses, I saw all these instances from outside the car, (it was a a minivan when I saw it this way) high above the city. But because it was a Disney town the car was always fine and no one was hurt. We drove through the center of the town, and I saw the police station had turned very sexual. There was police chief fucking a woman in his car right there on the street in the middle of town, in front of the station. I was horrified. Later I got away from the car and I hid in a convince store, bought some things when other people noticed me, a doughnut, a Loli pop, a few other pieces of candy. When I went to eat them on these stone eating area seats my mind played tricks on my and all of a sudden all I had were doughnuts, I hadn't even known I had bought one(it was pink) but then there were others, chocolate ones, and I was horrified it was triggering flashbacks in me, it was linked to a horrible memory. I ate the pink one to get over it, I had long thought it didn't bother me anymore, but I was too sickened by the chocolate ones. I ate them anyway. (There were five of them.) I think I fainted. A woman remarked i must have been hungry, in the way one says a homeless stray cat must have been hungry. And apparently I was back at this place, a living place, and I was with old family(not real family but lots of people familiar to me the way family would be) . Kinda like a facility. My grandparents , not sure which one, mocked me for leaving my mom, saying I was a horrid person, repeated that line I said back to me. Then left me, apparently they were a part of this organization. I wasn't happy to be forced back to be here. I had letters from two ex's, the letters included a phone. This girl, a friend of mine, encouraged me to write or answer back. I refused telling her why, one of them was a guy who really hurt me, (sexually) and I did go into detail about it the story, but I don't recall what I said. She was equally horrified, and then we found out when he came to gloat he worked there, in fact he was the chief of police and the whole police station had turned to a whore house, where women were put on display and fucked routinely. I was scared silly he would come find me. She urged me to answer the other letter, from someone who had genuinely loved me, who might come and save me. But I knew it was a he, and was worried I'd get the letters confused and call the wrong person, and I hesitated. Later they wanted me to do a photo shoot for the facility, one which showed me wearing very sexy, revealing, clothes and taking them off. Instead I tried to bring back the old Disney, showing them sexy can be demure and I dressed up this way. I put on different clothes, was very sexy but covered.