My Gay Ex Told Me He Had Dated Another Girl Before Me

Date: 1/20/2020

She had the same name as me, but she was blonde. Actually it's funny because the girl who liked him in high school had my same name and was blonde, but the girl in my dream was a lot prettier. He didn't have mutual feelings for the girl in high school. The girl in my dream he said had been like in student government and now she was in a career of government relations. He'd broken up with her because she soon turned into a disrespectful bitch to him because of her position in the student government as leader. I thought to myself that I must have been a breath of fresh air for him after her. Although I wasn't always the perfect girlfriend, I wasn't popular like that, and I do have a nurturing side to me in relationships. I can't remember what scene came first. I think it was the scene where he was asking me if I liked being with him for those 8-12 months we were together and having a best friend and someone to talk to. He put his arm around me as he was asking me this. I felt warm inside as he did this. I told him he was my best friend, and I think I put my arm around him as well. I remember thinking that he must not have been sexual with the girl before me, wanting to ask, but I never did. Instead, I got an answer through watching a scene from the "past" of the two of them, which actually I just listened to and didn't see till later. It was in my house for some reason. They were in my downstairs bathroom while I was in the kitchen. I couldn't really make out what they were saying because they were speaking quietly. I thought they were breaking up because this scene happened while my ex was telling me he had broken up with her because she become disrespectful to him. However, based on the flirty tone of his voice (I mostly heard his voice), it didn't sound to me like they were breaking up. What I did hear more clearly was him sort of grunt in a way that told me that he had lifted her into his arms. I could just tell, I don't know why. He then said "I love this so fuckin much." Soon after I could hear his tone turn horny and he said "you like that?" I had a feeling I knew what was happening, so I walked over to the bathroom and sure enough, he was standing there with her in his arms, thrusting into her. There seemed to be a blue towel on his crotch. So, that's what I mean by I got my answer, and I didn't like it. I've actually told him irl that I'm glad he turned out to be gay, and I will always be the only girl he's dated because I wouldn't be able to handle seeing him with another girl and, of course, my dream brain had to force me to see that. Thanks, brain! At least it was just a dream. They turned and looked at me for a second, but didn't say anything. Then, the dream switched back to me with him in the present day. We were cloud watching. I saw all kinds of faces in the clouds. I also remember eating this chocolate cake that was like those donette donuts, but with chocolate cake and big donuts. I struggled with getting my piece as I took it in multiple pieces, trying to even out the cake after I'd sloppily taken a piece. My mom was there, and she wanted my friend (I'm gonna call him my friend now because he is) to help me, but I handled it. In the rest of the dream, I was with these girls and I was freaking out because I kept seeing these hallucinations of this girl's face when I would close my eyes or do something else that I forget. She was a brunette girl, and I thought she looked like Ava Max except with brown hair. I told the girls. Her face would go from the far left side of my field of vision to the far right side. I was like "wtf is going on?" Soon, the hallucination dissipated though, much to my relief. I then, just remember finding myself on this boat in this ocean after I had journeyed from I'm guessing a campus. I was trying to make my way to the parking lot to my mom's car, but ended up here. The boat was rocked quickly. I felt like I was on a rollercoaster as it rode ocean waves. My childhood best friend was there. I also remember a bonfire. I was on there for like five minutes, then I was walking to this fence, which was a barrier to the busy street beyond, which I needed to cross to get to the parking lot. I looked next to me and saw my art history professor. I said hi. This scene repeated again. It was like a different instance though, but then I saw her again and said hi to her again. I then asked her if she could walk with me across the street. I didn't feel safe walking alone. She didn't answer and instead asked me if I was coming to the bonfire event. She kinda droned on about it till I was able to get a word in to tell her I was at a bonfire already. The focus then became on the road and when a good time to cross would be. We'd have to climb over the fence, which was going to be hard for me. We decided to do it the instant this tractor trailer passed, but then we didn't. Then there were all these trucks that whizzed by. I was getting anxiety, but we then got over the fence, me a little more slowly and I think that's why we couldn't cross the first time. Then, I didn't feel like I was moving my own body, but a force was pulling me. I felt like I was floating across. Then, I was in the parking lot and to find my mom's car, I suddenly had this vision like Bailey the whale in Finding Dory of the whole route I'd have to take to get to my mom's car. Then, I took it and I was there. I remember a red car being in the way of me getting to the car. It was just sitting there in the middle of the parking lot, but I got to my mom's car. I think my sister was in the front, so I had to get in the back.