Dream that ruined my day

Date: 3/12/2019

My mom and I were at this place. Everything was going wonderful. I had achieved 2 things that I always worry about not having, and I felt so proud and not guilty for existing and actually wanting the future to happen. My mom and dad were proud of me, but also just happy that I was happy. I was so content and not dreading the future for once. I never had any feelings in a dream before this that I can remember. I woke up in a great mood and just went around morning routine. I was brushing my teeth and looking in the mirror when I realized those good things never actually happened. It really ruined my entire day and all those positive feelings completely reversed in less than a second. I just went through my whole day feeling like a sick perversion of what I could be.