Altered Memory Pictures and an Indie Cartoon

Date: 3/17/2025

*I would classify this as 13+, so like PG-13, not 18+ cause I don’t think it’s really rated R. For mentions of naked butt, mentioning having coitus but no descriptions of it, and mention/discussion about porn/porn addiction. Also sorry it’s so freaking long. My dream recall has been insane lately 🤷🏻‍♀️😎 I was looking at an old picture of R and D and they looked the same but it was a memory of that time we met at the park inside a fake photo we never actually took irl. Except, D looked skinnier and I asked myself, was he really that skinny? Why did I remember him bigger? Because that’s happened to me irl sometimes I will remember ppl bigger than they actually were esp in early 2000s movies when they depict the ‘fat’ ppl they were usually kind of small by today’s idea of what really fat actually is. anyway, R was posing next to him like a hand on hip and opposite hand on neck with elbow out, making a kissy face at the camera. If you looked closely, it’s suppose to be an appropriate photo but she has her pants down exposing black lacy/criss crossy panties and also something else at the top of her outfit was going on that was “risquée” but I can’t remember what. Easy enough for me to know why I dreamt this detail, bc this old friend is doing online porn now. Snapchat updated into game with schools and basements and winters and turkeys and wolves that I would guard myself against with a box anytime they came near, even going as far as nipping them in the nose or face if they wouldn’t back off. This felt real at times but I think it was all inside the SC game. The school one contained an old history teacher but I guess he actually retired and a new one was working there and there was a scandal about that teacher. I forgot old teacher’s name so I asked, is it a bald guy? And the people who were telling me about their son getting groped were like “It doesn’t matter, they all suck” I would wander the halls of a school as if I were studying at one too. It was a school that looked almost identical to the one from Life Is Strange, but bigger is all. I go to a history class and see my old bald teacher, but maybe that was just a fake memory within the dream. Cause my school was modern not dark brown wood. And I don’t think any of our teachers had scandals or committed crimes while I went there. Another part of snapchat game was at my aunt and uncle’s house which was a cabin in a winters wonderland for some reason. There were christmas ornaments all over my uncle’s table outside he was making from scratch and he tells me to go put an ornament I found over there. I don’t listen and instead i hang it on a door knocker, because i’m wearing socks and i step in the snow and it freaks me out so much I can’t continue anywhere except the sidewalk. Later I actually have shoes and I go around a neighborhood looking for friends to hang out with on a Snapchat party finder thing and I go to a couple houses where there’s basements. The basements only have a wooden door that folds downwards on its hinges and in the game you use that to climb up and down instead of a ladder. I think to myself, this game needs some realism updates eventually. When I am going home I’m holding a bucket or blue box or something that I hit the turkeys and wolves with if they come near. I worry about them breaking in the yard and hurting a little shitzu I have in the backyard of what looked like Bev’s old house, as if it were mine now. Turkeys and wolves pretty much respected me enough to listen to my warnings, or I had them controlled for some reason, and I wasn’t scared, I was nonchalant, just wanting to keep my yard secure. But when I go inside my uncle or aunt or something tries to fend off the turkeys and they make them angry so then the wolves get stronger and one might have bit me I’m not sure. I was trying to take pictures of a naked butt sitting on a glass table??? Specifically my own I think? idek it was very random. I think I was getting photography help from this guy I’m about to describe. A cartoon plays on my iPad while I’m sitting in my room holding it in my lap and it depicts a tinder type of hookup meeting. The art style looks like Bee and Puppycat but make it a little more grungy. A dark blue haired guy is smiling sleepily. His hair reaches just past his ears and he would actually be a really cute OC (original character) but he is depressed so he grows mushrooms all over his body. In this scene he gets undressed and takes off his socks and it shows a bunch of tiny little brown mushrooms growing on one of them as an example. The girl he is with, supposedly me, doesn’t even care, although would prefer he take better care of himself. Before I continue, you should know, reader, I would never actually do this with a guy who has mushrooms growing on his body 😐 I think it may be because I have been influenced by Japanese culture where when mushrooms grow it is a sign of depression or a depressive state, and it was a cartoon using that visual language. Apparently I had coitus with this blue haired fellow but we were cartoons and everyone on Snapchat was like “I can’t believe you slept with him” “congrats on sleeping with a literal corpse” and “ewww why he got mushroom growing on him” and to be fair, i had no memory of it and I was basically all these people in the replies because i was like eww as well when I saw what they were seeing. Apparently I was doing porn like my old friend only I was a cartoon 🙈 The thought has crossed my mind to make money that way but it’s also a line I can’t cross personally. Not even feet stuff or anything. For a lot of girls I know that’s the gateway into other stuff. With so much rampant porn addiction, I can’t really see it as anything other than selling out/feeding into the exploitation of mainly men but also women. It also feeds a culture that fosters perverted things, so. Yeah. If anyone is offended please don’t tell me, bc it won’t be productive, bc it’s not something that I’ll change my mind on lol.