Unexplained Ex’s

Date: 8/15/2018

So I dreamt that my ex girlfriend Yulia was in my dream and I saw her sitting at a table with a man. I approached them and the guy stood up as to protect her and I said I just want to talk to her. She told me that was her new guru therapist and she has been In therapy for what I did to her. (She told me something very personal and I broke up with her like right after that and she thought it was because of what she told me but that wasn’t the case) anyway I told her that I was so sorry and that I never Meant to hurt her and she replied that she felt like a freak for all these years after we split up and I was crying and telling her how much I love her and screaming that not a day goes by that I don’t think about her while I’m driving or working and looking at her photos. She didn’t say she loved me back but she was being very reserved just listening intently. I said yulia Iv always loved you and that’s never going to change and I fucked things up and now we have a big problem because I’m married. And I don’t know what to do about that. We got close to each other and I remember looking at her in her eyes and thinking how beautiful she is. And I told her that I was really worried about her current lifestyle and that I could never give her any of those things but I don’t believe that’s what really makes her happy because Iv seen her truly happy with me when I had nothing. The guru kept trying to pull her away from me and I kept grabbing her hand. She just kept looking back at me as she walked away with him and I cried like sobbing crying. She never let out any emotion expect the time she screamed at me for hurting her and making her think less of herself. The rest was just a blank stare. And then I turned into a secret agent and was fighting some guy in a warehouse with a broken pool stick and he was flying around on all these ropes trying to stab me back. That’s all i remember from that part.