Eating Holiday Dinner with Strangers and Brother and My Mom is Open to Dating A Woman

Date: 12/12/2019

First part of the dream were these yellow vans that my sister said were something else, like a truck, and I was like "they must have had a lot cut off then." I felt like I woke up slightly after that before falling back asleep. Next: I was in the car with my brother going somewhere. He took me to this man's house. I didn't know him, but I think it was Thanksgiving and he was offering food to men who didn't have anywhere to go. I don't know why my brother and I were here because we did have family to eat with. In fact, they were at my house now at the table as my brother and I were at this strange man's house. As I said, he seemed to be offering food to only men, as there were basically only men there, save for myself and a couple other women. I didn't eat anything, although I was starving because I got the vibe I wasn't welcome to in this testosterone-laden environment. I can't remember if my brother ate anything; he might have. I did see one of the women eat something, but I still didn't eat. Then, we left and I was in this van. It was a handicapped van and there were people in it, and I had to get all the way in the back. There were multiple doors like for each seat, so like six doors one on each side for each section (front, middle, and back). I remember being in the back with this lady who was going to be at the table with my family for dinner. She had these bottled sparkling apple juice or sparkling cider with her. I also remember being dressed in my gray floral dress, although the weather was cold. My legs were also unshaven. There was actually a razor that the lady had put right in the door holder, but I didn't use it. It was going to take more than a quick few minutes and it would need to involve shaving cream and water anyways. I felt self-conscious though when I walked into dinner. My mom and my mom's brother's family were there (I think I had another dream about thanksgiving with them before thanksgiving. Weird because we haven't spent thanksgiving with them for the last two years). I just remember my aunt really and there was the strange lady with the sparkling juice. There were two bottles and one of them somehow got candle wax in it. I drank that one and it tasted nasty, but when the woman left I heard my aunt mutter that the drink she brought tasted disgusting. I was like "its not just this one with the candle wax?" Apparently the candle wax didn't do much to alter the flavor because I tried the other one and it tasted the same. It was sooo bitter! 🤢 I had to try to remember not to drink it though because I was thirsty. Next part, an old classmate from college was there. First, I saw her LinkedIn profile. She had changed her picture to this horrible picture of her in these casual af clothes, unkempt hair. I was like "wtf I liked her other picture better. Why would she change it??" I said this to my mom who was sitting at the computer screen with me. I learned she was doing some kind of business, not her marketing coordinator job anymore. It was very discreet, and I remember there was this room that was like her office that I wasn't allowed in. The dream came back to that throughout the scene with her being involved for some reason with my family's festivities. We were now doing like a secret Santa and apparently everyone was her secret Santa, which is unrealistic because obviously only one secret Santa is given per person irl. She was humble about it like "omg, everyone is giving me gifts." They actually weren't even gifts and that's not even really what she said, it was just along the lines of showing her humble surprise that everyone picked her. She was given these rocks or stone slabs with some kind of message on them. At one point I walked past her office, and saw inside. I was told I needed to leave. I walked down this unfamiliar hallway that was all made of wood with this guy and I think this girl. We were all confused as to where we were. The way it felt is that we had entered a new show like we were on a new show, but I think it was a metaphor of change/transition. Also, apparently I was on this show, which felt surreal. I eventually started to reflect on how I would see myself on TV now. I was in some scene with a swimming pool and I was going to jump in, and ended up jumping in backwards like with my back turned. I think my brother and sister were in the show too. There was also a part that the dream kept coming back to of this small child, like two year old almost escaping out an open door of a house. I grabbed the child in the last appearance of the scene. There was also an older child that may or may not have been my sister. I also remember these young boys. Next part: I was in the upstairs bathroom of my house, and suddenly my uncle is in there with me and sits on the toilet. So, I book it out of there, and go downstairs where my mother is on the couch. I told her my uncle was in the bathroom. Then, somehow we got into some conversation that involved her dating women in the future when she was done with her current boyfriend. She said she would be open to it and it caught me off guard. Like i didn't think my mom was into women, but she got defensive like I was being homophobic, which she's far more irl than I am and I am far from homophobic. I have two friends who are gay. I tried to tell her I wasn't against it; in fact, I was very open to it. I just wanted her to be happy. I then was reading something she wrote and it made me very emotional. She wrote about how she wanted to eventually get married again, which is something she's told me she probably won't do, and how she wanted to experience what most people experience in their teens of talking about boys. My dad was her only boyfriend until now. She never experienced dating before. Last part: I was given this charcoal gum that was like a pill, but only because it had medicinal properties like a drug while additionally being charcoal-based. I was told to just start chewing it instead of just letting it sit on my tongue for a certain period of time first like apparently you do with other medical gum. The packaging was orange, and for some reason, I thought the gum itself would be orange, forgetting it was charcoal gum. When I opened it it was like it was already chewed, but by me like I was just unwrapping a piece of gum I'd spit out in the wrapper for later. So, it wasn't gross. Then I was spitting out multiple pieces of it into the orange packaging because it was too much in my mouth or i didn't want to accidentally swallow it, which was irrational. Then, I woke up.