4/1

Date: 4/1/2019

i dreamt of meeting my mom at a gas station. and saw my sister there who asked if she could pay w my card do apple pay or something. i was thinking of the money i had in my pocket and I was also wearing designer clothes. i projected 3 times today. the forst time was the most vivid i flew from my living room balcony to the ground then over to the street where I saw a girl I wanted to feed from. the hunger was real so real that even though I was fading, I phased to her by will alone. then decided her energy wasnt clean enough for me. i woke up only to go right back into it. this time I left from my bedroom window, by the clubhouse then down to the ground and began to tether with a tree to try and ground myself. at some point i had an actual dream where i saw my dad and asked him for weed. as the sun was going down I wanted my last hits and anither dream where I saw children playing with aria and I kept affirming mental clarity until I started to feel like I was getting it. I walked over to living room balcony and decided I could fly. I felt gravity pull my down. I felt it draw my down. I decided to stay up as ling as I could. as I was being pulled down more and more I eventually surrendered and fell.