dream of my, ex after a decade of not seeing him

Date: 4/5/2018

we were together for five years, broke up 13 years ago. i am married last 10 years and I rarely think about him, but last two nights I keep dreaming about him. i feel weird in dreams, like my life after him never happened. first dream, he was on this beach with his kids, i was alone. saw him, he was beautiful and young like when we were together. i started crying and woke up. next night dream continues, we are talking and we want to try one more time, I see the city from this hill and beautiful sunset. long dream, just us in it, i didn't have any knowledge that I am married in dream although it is present time. We got back together and in that moment I realized I was married and I fraked out and woke up. My best friend was in my dream, she was different, so serious and not happy personality as I know her.