Shot

Date: 7/27/2020

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TRIGGER WARNING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't remember what happened before and what exactly made me do this but I do know that I didn't do it to take my own life. I was in the bathroom, staring at myself in front of the mirror. I took a glance at the handgun by the canisters on my right and thought of how when you shoot a shotgun it could hit many targets with one bullet and that my target would be the armpit because it would probably be less lethal.¹ With the gun on my right hand, I targeted my left armpit and pulled the trigger. There were no pain or blood but I did see a hole. Seeing that, I tried to shoot my other armpit but failed to do so because I only had that one bullet. Suddenly there were people surrounding me. They were doctors and interns assessing my wound as if it's demonstration on how to treat a gunshot wound. The doctor was explaining something about how to take out the bullet while she demonstated it on another intern. It definitely wasn't very sanitary when she used her fingers to poke around the wound to get the bullet and eventually using a tool to place it into the bowl. Even though I didn't feel pain, I was worried about not going under anesthesia and then eventually feeling the pain. All I remember from here on out was just sticking my fingers in my own wound to get the bullet out. I don't know how this dream ended.