over it

Date: 11/6/2019

i’ve been having nightmares every night. last night, i broke into cfd for the night. the next morning, i woke up before everyone and started to put together a puzzle. the cleaning lady (not the one from real life) told me that i could not be doing a puzzle and that i wasn’t welcomed there. kathleen (my therapist there in real life) showed up and told me that i needed to leave. i knew i couldn’t be there, but i knew i couldn’t be anywhere but there as my eating disorder had gotten out of hand and i needed help. i can only remember it to that point. these nightmares are so distressing.