the next Virgin Mary

Date: 12/12/2016

In real life I am a college student, a virgin, and I have a boyfriend of one year. I have also skipped my period for the last three or four months, and I have gained 30 pounds. In my dream I had to come to terms with the fact that I was pregnant. I took a pregnancy test that came back positive. I accepted that all the facts pointed towards that I was pregnant. This is my worst nightmare. I knew I did not want to have this child, but I was absolutely terrified. I did not know what to do or how I should do it. Worst of all, I had no idea how I could be pregnant since I have never had intercourse. I told my sister, because I needed her support. She admitted she was disappointed in me. She told me how horrible abortion is, and it scared me. I didn't want to have an abortion, but I was even more scared of carrying this child full term and giving birth. I begged her to not tell my mom. My mom was the last person I wanted to know. I call my best friend from high school, because I trusted her the most to be able to tell me what I should do. I walked outside my house and through the woods as I was talking to her. I told her I had to accept that I was pregnant, but I didn't want to have the baby. I was asking her where I could go, how much it would cost, etc. I don't remember her giving me any details. However, while talking to her I told her that I was a virgin, but I remember three instances where I was knocked out by drinking. So I speculated, "do you think someone could have taken advantage of me while I was knocked out?" My friend followed my kind of thinking. I was heartbroken that someone could do this to me, especially if it were someone I trusted. Suddenly in my dream music started blasting in my left ear, and I couldn't talk to my friend anymore. It was so loud it was almost defeaning. It was the song Right Round by Flo Rida. I ran away from the music so I could talk to my friend again. At the end of the dream I approached an empty house that was big and the roof was red. I walked underneath a canopy. I asked my friend, "do you really think this is what could have happened to me?" She answered, "well how do you feel about it?" Then I woke up.