Rejection

Date: 10/18/2016

My boyfriend of almost 2 years has never been anything but fiercely loyal and supportive of me, and I've never suspected him of infidelity, so I'm not sure where this is coming from. But anyhow, I've had a couple recent dreams in which he gets sick of me and dumps me for another woman. In the first dream he left me for some girl we knew from high school, except her name in the dream was Esmerelda. Now in real life everyone, himself included, hated this girl's guts because she's a raging bitch. But in this dream he sat me down and spoke to me very coldly about leaving, and when I asked "it's Esmerelda, isn't it?" he said "wait, let me finish," in a way that made me certain that was his reason for leaving. The other dream was far weirder. He had posted a video of himself singing (he is a voice major irl) on instagram, and Catherine Zeta-Jones DMed/emailed him telling him how talented he was and how he deserved so much better (better than what, she didn't say). Over the following weeks he started ignoring me more and more and avoiding me in public and giving me the cold shoulder. I decided to check his social media and found that he had deleted all evidence of our relationship. Then I checked his tumblr (he doesn't even have Tumblr irl, he hates it) and in the blog description, among some other bio-related information, it said something along the lines of "I waited so long for love to come in the mail and it finally did." These hurt like hell when I was dreaming them but as soon as I woke up my only feeling was confusion.