Ex is Going To Hawaii

Date: 12/3/2018

I was in a dream where I was talking with my ex and she tells me she's going to Hawaii, shows me pics of the tickets and everything. I get jealous and immediately book a 3 day vacation there too. Lately irl she's been telling me about all these things she's been doing from getting a new bf, to traveling all over and now moving to another state for a good paying new job. Life is going great for her and I find myself sometimes envious. So yeah, I book the tickets, but realize I probably can't get those days off and besides, how am I supposed to pay for this trip? I put everything on credit, but I'll have to pay all that back eventually and even though I'd love to travel, now is not a good time only due to my finances. And I assumed I couldn't get a refund on the tickets, only get a discount for a future trip if I don't go now. So now I'm debating whether I should just go or cancel and go at some later date. I start wishing I hadn't been so damn impulsive. My ex is almost always impulsive and I'm just not like that as I like everything planned out well in advance so there's no issues. I wake up shortly thereafter.