Baby and pooh bear

Date: 4/4/2019

So. Dreams. I had a very upsetting one last night. I dreamt I was pregnant and almost full term. I went into labor in the middle of the night and didn’t have time to tell my mom before I left for the hospital. I had the baby then passed out immediately after, but when I woke up the next morning I forgot I’d had the baby. Of course I remembered since it was sleeping right next to me in a little cot with a pooh bear doll about its same size. It was a little baby girl and she could not have been more perfect. I was so excited that I picked her up and started to call my mom. But the longer I carried her the heavier she got. I looked in the mirror and saw that she was already able to hold her head up. Then her legs got longer and she was wearing shoes. Then she was too heavy to carry. When I put her down she got taller until she was about 9 years old. She was holding up a sign in the mirror but I couldn’t tell what it said. But I was so sad. It felt like I’d lost her. Then when I turned away from the mirror, I found I was eating the little pooh bear doll. Just finishing it’s legs and my baby/child was gone. I got dressed and left the hospital room. The hall was super dark and eerie. I finally made it to the check out desk, but the two women behind it said “are you sure you want to leave? It’s 3am.” Coincidentally I woke up at 3 am. But when I went back to sleep the dream continued. They asked me how I was and I told them that my baby just grew up in my arms. They acted super sympathetic and made me some food and sat with me, but it was really really hard. The dream continued through my life and it was all I could think about. I helped my neighbors family get back together at this really luxurious hotel near the hospital. But towards the end of the dream I wanted to go back to the hospital, but when I tried to ask people where it was, no one knew what I was talking about. And that’s that really. It all feels super symbolic, but I don’t know if I have it in me to analyze this one. If anyone wants to take a stab at it, please do.