Weird and Heartbreak

Date: 9/16/2018

It started out that I was at a part with my brother and sister. we all randomly decides to get tattoos and Josh Shirley from high school was the one who did it. I ended up with like 6 tattoos a few on my arms and a couple on my chest and so did my siblings. we were kinda excited but kinda scared that mom was going to freak. so we are all partying and my husband was nowhere to be seen during all this time. he had been gone partying and hanging out with all sorts of people for weeks and I never really saw him. so I was upset when I ran into h at this Halloween party hanging out with a bunch of people, including girls and ignoring me. so I separated from my brother and sister. they were going to my parents and since I had been drinking I was going to crash. I was tired and ready for bed. so I crashed at someones house and ended up crawling in bed with 3 guys. one guy was curling me but everything was totally pg. I was ok with the cuddling because I have been craving touch for so long. I even though about having sex but he never offered so it made that choice easy for me. since before this dream even in real life, my husband has been completely horrible and has not touched me in over a year. it has actually almost been two years now and during that he would say horrible things that have messed me up psychologically like saying things like it is too much work to touch me and have sex with me and that it is just easier to jack off. so after 6-8 months of him doing that, I completely stopped having sex with him. so this has really been almost a three year issue. well, my mom showed up there saying that I had to go home with my brother and sister. I wasnt going to cause a scene and I really just wanted to go to bed because I was so upset about my husband that I agreed. she was driving a van though, which is weird. so we were driving and they were not taking me to their house. we were all in the van and my sister was so upset with my mom about her tattoos and that she made her put makeup on it to try and cover it up. she was being absolutely horrible. during this time, it also came to light that she had adopted a disabled baby. she was threatening it horrible so I was done and told her to pull over. she wouldnt, so I jumped out with the baby and left. after I did that I saw Carlie Depascale bajaing through a muddy field, clearly drunk. I yelled at him and asked him if he needed me to drive and he was like no. so I kept walking toward home. I had texted my hubby at this point to come pick me up since I had this baby. he texted me no. then my mom turned around and tried to pick me up but we were right next to my grandma and grandpas driveway so i said we should go there so we could not argue in the cold with the baby. so we want there and my grandma and aunt Denise took my side and my mom was all upset and stormed off. during this time I had been texting my hubby and he had been constantly saying horrible things. when I was like you're seriously not going to pick me up when I'm stranded 17 miles out of town. and he sent me pictures that he took of me sleeping. I'm like yeah, I was sleeping, I was ready for bed and you ditched me. I couldn't drive, came with my siblings and you wanted nothing to do with me. so I found a bed to crash, it's not like we had sex or did ANYTHING. he then sent me a picture of about 5 girls who were either naked or in lingerie. one was in red stockings and a garter, and he said, I'd much rather stay where I'm at. well, I ran past a haunted house and saw Catherine Rankin so thought maybe they could help me figure out a ride. went through the haunted house, which was a totally really dumb and got a ride from them heading home. I texted my husband absolutely furious telling him to just stay where he is. there is a huge difference between finding a bed when you're drunk and when I was ditched by my husband to continue to party and dance and grind all up on girls because he didnt want to go home with me and having sex. What I did was find a place to sleep while him going and having sex with those girls and sending me pictures was an action of payback. I was so mad. so here I was with this baby going home and told him to never come home again. I would leave his stuff on the street. and then I woke up.