New Body

Date: 10/6/2019

I had a dream I missed my stupid ex boyfriend who I broke up with some weeks ago. I was showing my dad a map of where I’d been. I was so distressed in general that I kept putting a flame to my head and letting my upper layer of hair at the roots melt off. But at one point I got distracted and left it too long. I ran to the faucet in the bathroom and washed it. My hair was shoulder length and thick. (In real life I have longer hair). I had tattoos all over me, even a red one on my cheek. I thought about how sad it was that i had never even put these tattoos on my body. My old body, which I had taken care of so much with tan smooth skin and no ink, was gone. From one moment to the next it had broken and I had to use someone else’s skin. This made me question what was the point of even taking care of myself when you can lose it all so quickly. While I was still in the bathroom my old math teacher ran naked into my room saying sorry but not sorry I need to get somethings. And I was like gross and I ran to the kitchen.