Rhododendron

Date: 4/6/2020

9:45 Woke up, but then just lay In bed falling asleep unintentionally. I am in C., my old home. Ian has a dog he got from someone who cannot look after it any longer. The dog had a bad owner before the last one. She is very very sweet, though scared. I love her right away. I can tell at this point that this might be a dream, because I can already feel myself preparing for the sadness that will come with waking up. I am now in the kitchen with K and Jh. I’m standing while they sit at the counter which faces the window high above the grounds of the front entrance to the house. I don’t know why but I became lucid as I was talking to them, and told them to excuse me a sec as I opened the window half way, then remembering there was no need, pushed myself through the glass and into the air outside the house. I floated down to the large rhododendron sitting out front and began to focus on my breath and examine the flowers while not looking at one point for too long—all to try become more lucid and stay asleep. Of course, I should of performed a reality check instead... I think I just lost lucidity rather than woke up because I remember being in my old bedroom, still at C., with K and Jh as well. My bedroom has things I wouldn’t have had like looney tunes characters on the walls. There is a small bubble gum jar under my desk. K asks for one; I tell him it’ll cost 50p.