The Suicide

Date: 10/21/2022

I work with this Englishman, selling newspapers and magazines but his wooden-made shop is more like a hut. There is one customer in office wear that buys newspaper regularly and they both will talk in Jewish. One day, I asked who is he and he then decided to tell me who he was. The newspaper is fake printing, getting help from someone in the printing company. He somehow exposed his true identity and for that, he decided to end his life and so did the newspaper guy. I walk down the lift with Dad and we both are in suits. I received an SMS from the police saying that they wanted to meet me for an investigation cos I murdered someone. We both head to this field, surrounded by flats and the place is unknown. We both took out our revolver and shot ourselves, placing the barrel of the gun below our chin. As I lay on the ground, I noticed more people were doing the same and I dont know them. As a couple walked past to see the dead bodies, this man looked at me and called me, Amir and he was in tears. Then I am somewhere in the post-mortem room and there are 2 people, a Chinese lady, 60s, balding and her hair is dyed pinkish red and another Chinese old man, around 60s and both were performing post-mortem. And I guess my turn will be next. He lifted a leg of a dead body and said how muscular this dead guy is and the lady was pulling the hair from the shoulder of this dead guy and cutting it and placing it gently on top of his organs. Suddenly I was lying down, looking at the wall and saw a map but it was moving and beside me, was my nephew Rafiq and we both were dead. I somehow began to talk in my head and say, may Allah forgive us both. Rafiq and I and began to cry. Rafiq's head is placed beside mine, still lying on the ground, in an unknown room.

AI generated interpretation This dream is filled with complex and distressing imagery that suggests feelings of guilt, shame, and a desire for self-punishment. The setting of the dream, with the wooden hut-like shop and the mysterious customer speaking in Jewish, could represent a sense of being in a situation where things are not as they seem or where deception is a prominent theme. The revelation of the customer's true identity leading to thoughts of suicide may symbolize a fear of facing consequences for one's actions or a need to escape from a perceived betrayal or exposure. The involvement of your father in the dream may suggest a desire for guidance or protection during a difficult or challenging situation. The SMS from the police indicating that you are being investigated for murder could reflect feelings of guilt or culpability for something that you may have done or thought about doing. The act of shooting yourselves in the field surrounded by others who are also engaging in similar self-destructive behavior could represent a sense of shared suffering or a feeling of being overwhelmed by dark emotions and thoughts. The man calling you Amir and crying could symbolize a deep emotional connection or a sense of loss. The post-mortem scene with the Chinese lady and man may represent a need for introspection and self-examination. The intricate and detailed process of examining the dead bodies may symbolize a desire to understand and potentially heal from past traumas or mistakes. The final scene with you and your nephew Rafiq lying dead and seeking forgiveness from Allah suggests a deep sense of remorse and regret. The presence of Rafiq may symbolize a need for familial connections or a desire for reconciliation. Overall, this dream appears to reflect deep-seated feelings of guilt, shame, and a desire for absolution. It may be helpful to explore any unresolved emotions or conflicts in your waking life that could be manifesting in this dream. Talking to a therapist or trusted individual about these feelings could help you process and work through them in a healthy way.