NoFap Relapse

Date: 1/15/2018

I had a dream that I finally nutted after like a month on NoFap. In my dream, I was masturbating and watching porn? It felt so good to finally let go after so long, even though a month is not that long of a timeframe. I believe I was about to ejaculate, but I woke up before that could happen.. When I woke up, it almost killed me to not watch porn and ejaculate immediately. It took all my willpower. At one point, I had even made up my mind and decided that I'm going to go and masturbate to porn right now. Then I remembered why I started, and all this time would have then been a waste.. This happened in the morning and honestly, I don't remember exactly what happened but I don't think I nutted that day. The NoFap streak lives.