Too much medication

Date: 12/14/2020

I was at school n everyone was being kinda bitchy, i guess i had done something important to help and they hadnt thought of it so they were mad. When i got home i was livin in a small apartment and my dads ex’s son was there being an idiot. The docs put him on medication and he was in the house taking not one but like 8 pills at once, laughin about it sayin its cool n drinking alcohol with it. I kept tryna tell him its not good and i got really pissed because hes like a complete idiot; if he wants t die then go off i guess. I was salty n left. I had to take my meds too and while i was scolding him i took one, and ended up taking like 6 over time because I was stressed and not paying attention; so now im gonna overdose too and im all worried. Like i should throw these up but at the same time itd be a waste. So i went back to school heavily medicated, i think i was barely there, and on break i was salty n tellin my gf about it. She just kinda laughed n said its fine, I take more than whats needed almost every day, and she just played it off like its all fine. So i was pissed and tryna talk to her because n o thats not a good thing. And she just kept going on about stuff like “i do it all the time” or “if i die i die” and she just kept making light of it. I told her i didnt want her to end up dead because of overdose, and that i was very serious about losing her. And she kept going on so i just stopped trying. I went home to do my own thing, something idiotic. I had a friend from the ol neighborhood race me or help me take a huge tank of fluid out the house and i needed them to help me drag it to school. Idk, that was wack, but over time since i hadnt come back t chat she slightly eased into the idea that taking too much is bad. It was still a bit of a sarcastic/playful tone but ig at least she agreed in some way.