Beautiful body and mind

Date: 5/5/2026

I was living somewhere, in this new apartment building. It was strange. Like a Max's of tiny house apartments connected a single building. You got a coin that let you into yours. Like maybe more a dorm situation. I knew I had to pay to keep mine. But paying wasn't always possible. It was strange to live with other people, but not live with other people. It felt uncomfortable. I had friends. They made things worse and better. We were in the same boat. Often walking up pong hillsbto get to this place. I think it existed in different cities, but ended up in the same place. A few friends of mine I roomed with were lackadaisical in nature. Almost like college kids. Just irresponsible until they were very responsible. But I could learn from them. They were going through what I was,nor already had been. I was very upset about being gay. I thought I had eradicated it. But it was back and it felt bad. Made me sick to my stomach. It wasn't the same nice attraction as before but attraction I hated, that felt bad inside my body, visibly like sickness.I didn't want to continue down this course. I had stuff to do. And I had this ballroom scene, where I danced out this past pains and longing that was almost like a forced longing and it never felt good. The location was a maze. I went around a lot getting lost in this quaint village city, than a hilly metropolis, then a proper city. And finally it was back to a suburb city. I was friends with a lot of non humans. I was secretly non human. But I was helping people out, secretly, it was my job. And I found someone who was going to blackmail a friend of mine. I talked to her a long them, we discussed the bad nature of that and she decided against it and went away. Later I found the recording she was going to use, a pink pen, that recorded my friend saying what she was and shifting. My friend saw me pick it up and knew what it was because I had played it, then she point blank asked me to give it to her. I wanted to so badly but I knew I had to keep it. There was something very important I was protecting her from. Anyway she assumed the worst. Assumed I would use it to hurt her, like the blackmailer. And she sorta sulked then all her friends shunned and bullied me online. They began smear campaigns. Telling everyone I was horrible and a liar and to never trust a word I said. and it went on and on a and on. For months, escalating. Very painful. I couldn't explain. The very explaination would be telling their thing I wanted to protect her from. So I just stayed silent. But the bullying destroyed my life. I was looking for a place to hide from the bullies and I went into a store. It was a very very rich fancy jewelry store. But I left very quickly, realizing what it was. The store clerk came after me and after my bully passed and was gone I went back in as an apology to say I was sorry for scaring them. They tried to sell me jewelry, stuff so expensive I'd have nothing in the bank. I though I might be able to afford something small but I think even earrings would be hundreds. I wanted one of the pretty collar necklaces. A blonde was upset with me, thinking I had thought her ugly when I came in, and was hiding in a wooden box bench sauna contraption. I went to reassure her and found her curled up naked and so skinny she felt like sticks. She was a model and very sensitive. I pulled her out of the box and into my arms and this was normal in that store, maybe normal in this dream world. She curled up and I held her and against my better judgement I felt a strong heart connection growing. I was fighting it because I didn't want to be gay again. But she was lovely inside, not just ouside. Inside she was the purest gentlest spirit. It was impossible not to love her. I left her there, and she lingered in my head but I didn't know what to say and I didn't want to talk about it so I didn't and left. I went to care for my pet. It had babies. I think it was a dog or a bird. It had many babies and I raised them on this dog park section of the city. People complained. They didn't like the babies. Said I should take them elsewhere. But it was only for a few weeks for them to grow out. They were literally almost ready to fly. There was a faucet there, where on one side it was a normal faucet and the other it had hod and cold but also two more mid degrees. It was better for you spiritual each one.