Sleep paralysis

Date: 2/10/2019

I was looking out the window deep in thought of something emotional when I finally fell asleep (or when the paralysis began). I was still looking out the window, and I could tell I was falling asleep but I was unable to move. Immediately I became panicked to allow myself to fall asleep, like I would die if I did. My body wouldn’t move at all though I desperately tried to get myself up. In my peripheral vision I could see a black shadow that isn’t normally there where the wall and the ceiling met. A demon (or so I thought at the time). I tried screaming “help”, but nothing. Then I tried screaming “get away from me, you fucking bitch” (to the demon). Nothing worked. I tried screaming “help” again as much as I could and this time I could hear a very muffled “help” sound coming from me. As sudden as it began, it was over. I could move and look around again. The dark shadow wasn’t there. I still don’t know what it was. This wasn’t my first sleep paralysis in the past two months, but this was the first time I saw a shadow figure. Though every time, I’m always overpowered by a sense of fear and death if I don’t wake myself up.