I almost hooked up with my high school crush

Date: 4/1/2019

This dream felt the most real out of all my other dreams combined. I was outside a car park with my friends from my old high school but they were all strangers. This time instead of me having my natural blonde hair and blue eyes with fair skin. I was someone else I was in a different girl’s body. I had short brown hair and light green eyes and it was slightly wavy and the same skin tone. And was wearing my brown leather flat sandals, a mid length white dress and a khaki cardigan. My crush just saw me while he was with my friends and he came up really close to me like he wanted to have a personal conversation with me but he wrapped his arms around my waist and held me and leaned in and puckered his lips for a kiss. I was flustered and didn’t know how to approach the kiss but was willing and exited at the same time I attempted to kiss his lips but failed as he kept moving in different directions instead of following me. At first I was expecting him to lead and dominate the kiss but it was me this time. I kept trying to kiss him properly but I only ended up slightly pecking his lips in the wrong direction of how the kiss should’ve went. I felt awkward afterwards and then he just let go of me, got turned off and ran off with a different girl that had blonde hair and ocean grey-blue eyes. Feeling sad and disappointed that I lost my chances with my crush I headed to a elevator with one of my closet friends who was also a stranger but I described to have mid length blonde hair and grey blue eyes. And was in her mid-late twenties. I’m 19 now btw. But the girls body I had, she seemed to be early to mid twenties same as my crush. We were discussing how and why he went after the other girl was because of her appearance because he wanted someone ‘prettier’ a girl with blonde hair and light blue eyes as his standard of beauty rather than my current psychical features. And then I remember saying to her while looking at my reflection In the mirror that ‘it’s amazing how much you’d want go through to change yourself’ and turned to look at her and analyse her face and hair. And then she responded with something along the lines of ‘yeah someone with blonde blue-grey eyes’ and scoffed. We then turned up at a mall that was similar to the mall I used to go to after school with my nan every two weeks. I walked past factorie, one of the stores that used to be my go-to. it seemed Normal and I wanted to go in there after for some clothes I wanted to buy. Then I went to this other store that was ‘Collette’ which was a handbag store and they were selling perfumes. There was this blue perfume that I tried and it was in a tall light turquoise and white ombré glass rectangular bottle called ‘perfect.’ In a cursive gold font. The scent was unexplainable to how amazing it smelt. It had the perfect combination of a scent and was better than any other perfume in the world better than all expensive and high-end perfumes. It was the perfume I always wanted and would search the world for. But I know on this earth they wouldn’t have it. Sadly only in this dream. Then for some reason I headed out the store to look in other stores never to find the Collette store for reason. And checked ‘Factorie’ again and it had changed. the store had been taken out and replaced with a super beauty store warehouse that had all makeup and beauty products a lot like Sephora. Some were on shelves and some were on the ground. They had also similar looking perfumes to the one that I tried before but didn’t interest me because I knew they all weren’t the perfume I was looking for. Then I continued looking for a makeup pack, I saw they had new editions and stock on trend that was Demi Lovato makeup packs that had complete hair accessories, makeup, brush set in a box. But they still weren’t the set I was looking for, but all the other sets had less products in them I was looking for a wide range of makeup products such as eyeshadow colours, blush, lip sticks and glosses eye liner and lip liners, a complete set of makeup brushes, and all different styles you can ever imagine in hair accessories, the only ones that would most likely have most of these products would be in the Demi Lovato packs and I was about to proceed and pick one up to purchase, but the dream ended there. But the main important part about this is what is the part where I was with my crush who was the person I fell in love with for the last of senior high school years, I never gotten a chance to talk him properly either I always backed out of talking to him or approaching him bc I was always too shy. what does this mean?