Dying

Date: 11/7/2018

In this dream I was admitted to the ER on a roller bed with a pulse of 230. I could feel my heart beating so fast that my whole body quivered. I was not ready to die. In the ER I could hear the physician say that there was a chance of me having a heart attack if the electrocardiogram didn't go well. I was terrified and scared because I didnt know what was on the other side and if I would go to heaven. The nurses there kept telling me I'd be fine but I could hear sly remarks and lack of empathy in their voice. The doctors shocked me and I fell asleep. I then awoke with a pulse at 90 then steadily increased. At the end of the procedure the nurses gathered around me in a circle and starting laughing at me. I felt the urge to yell at them so I did. "You don't know what it's like to be me, none of you even care!" I screamed at the top of my voice, but they carried on as if I wasn't there, as if I were not dying before their eyes. I felt trapped and betrayed. The feeling that no one would miss me anyways if I were gone. other things in this dream: -a tree with big pink flower bulbs that flowed in the wind -getting lost