Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 4/27/2022
By randybobandy
I was gonna kill myself. I said my goodbyes to all my friends and family. No one was really concerned at all. I took a bunch of pills that I apparently researched so I knew it was the exact amount needed for a fatal dose. I went to lay down in bed, and I waited to die. Nothing ever happened. Everyone was annoyed that I “lied.” In the morning I went to my best friend’s house. While I was there I decided to email my final paper to my professor. For some reason I included in the message that I tried to kill myself last night but survived. I then went into my friend’s kitchen and saw she had Fruity Pebbles cereal and got excited. I made a bowl. I went back to my laptop to see an email from my partner from class, he had emailed my professor with my paper, and was extremely concerned about my wellbeing. At the end of the message he hoped I was alive and said he loved me “only a normal amount. Maybe a little more than that.” I suddenly got very scared and confused. Firstly, I knew this type of behavior would likely get me kicked out of school. I checked the email chain behind my partner’s email to see how he got a hold of it. I saw at the beginning my initial email that I thought I sent to my professor was actually sent to an email for customer service for Wendy’s. Whoever received it was extremely confused and forwarded it to someone else who forwarded it to someone else. Each person who received it was confused not only because of the paper attached but because of my comment about trying to kill myself. One person remarked “This is what Adderall does to the brain.” Eventually someone saw my partner’s email in the paper and forwarded it to him. I was so embarrassed and humiliated that I decided I would once again try to kill myself. I took the pills again and went to lay down. I tried to lay in the best position for someone to be able move my corpse later on. It really felt like nothing was happening though.