Ruining a orchestra

Date: 12/10/2017

Info you need to understand the dream before reading. 1- I don’t play violin in high school (real life). I did played violin in middle school. 2- this dream is mixed of my middle school people and my high school people. So my high school had a big event. It had many entertainments etc... We were supposed to walk in to our grade seats. I was in 9th grade. We sat down Then I heard my (real life middle school) orchestra teacher on the stage said “if you play the orchestra, grab your instruments” The orchestra begin to grab their instruments. Funny how I was seated next to them. I saw the unused violin next to me. I grabbed it. “Now we are playing twinkle twinkle little star” *students play* I begin to follow. I did get the notes right at the beginning. And then later I got wrong. I didn’t care if I got wrong during that time. I just want to play. Audience: *claps* “This next song is called the composer” *students play* My (real life middle school) friend was seated next to me. I told her “I don’t know how to play the composer. Can you show me the sheet?” She bend down and get the binder. She grabbed the sheet out. In my head I said: This is little harder than I thought. There were mostly eight notes and 16 notes. And most hardest is the dotted side notes. “ 1 2 3” the teacher said. she put the sheet far away from me to the point where I can’t see the notes well. I play. I messed up couple times. I kept playing. I was laughing. Some people give me the disgust faces. Some were confused. I was little embarrassed —————————- I woke up. Dreams never make sense. I had some people I know from middle school. And most people from current high school. I think I kept playing and didn’t care because I think I loved the feeling of playing the violin. I love express through music. In real life. I quit violin because a lot of reasons. All the little reasons add up and equal to “loss motivation”. I still loved the violin. It’s just I wasn’t motivate anymore and I couldn’t see where I was going. I guess the dream represented me missing my violin. And that is true. *sigh* Thank you for reading this.