brain and memory fuckery

Date: 11/26/2017

I was a younger son in a big family, we were in a big family home. the father of the family was a cruel man, criminal, think mafia boss. murdered etc etc. something long and elaborate happened. basically all of the family wanted to get rid of him, there was fight and the man suffered a bad fall. the whole family started playing that the father lost hearing as consequence of fall by being silent around him until they put earmuffs in his ears or something and started scheming how to kill him. I as a younger son was against it. father was put into some kind of machine that made you see through other people's eyes or something along those lines. it could also make you relive memories. i think that was to just sedate him until the plan was ready. the son got really mad at this, tried preventing the whole scheme and communicate with the father, but they didn't let him so he finally shot himself in the head. at this moment I awaken in the body of the father and understand that I was made to live through the eyes of the son. I break out of the machine, there is another big fight and by some details I understand that even now I am not where I am but being made to relive this memory by the machine. something happens and I am able to wake up into the real reality and take off the headset of the machine. I am in some kind of laboratory, a young woman is approaching me. i understand that I am being held against my will and my brain and memories are being fucked with. there is a very brief - couple of seconds - confrontation between me and the woman, I shout "you're fucking with my brain", she answers "i am analysing it, shut up. it's my thesis" and tries to sedate me. She is some kind of forensic brain scientist working with murderer's minds. I do not want to be tortured like this and being forced to relive that memory over and over so I grab a gun and shoot myself in the head. End of the dream, I wake up.