I'm tired of this.......

Date: 4/4/2017

I suffer from depression, stress, loneliness, and anxiety it takes a lot out of me....I have had it for a long time and all I do is hide my pain behind a smile and saying nothing is wrong. But there is something wrong, I'm torn up on the inside. No one is even willing to listen...no one cares. All people say is "it will be fine" or "cheer up" or my favorite "just move on already" HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO MOVE ON IF IT KEEPS BEING ADDED ON TO EVERYDAY !!? And I can't tell any of my friends because I don't feel like I can trust them with this and that they don't truly care. It's a lot to take in and understand for them. Even when I do share I don't even know where to start. Because it's been a long time since I felt truly happy, all I feel like doing is breaking down and crying....and I can't take holding it in anymore. It causes strong inner anger and hate. And it feels like when I snap I will hurt people around me....😞😔😥