About to be killed

Date: 8/5/2017

I was some woman that was pregnant or something and I was about to turn myself in to be killed by this guy because he caught me committing some kind of crime or I wronged him so I was taking responsibility by allowing him to kill me. Then I chickened out because I thought about all the sex I had in my lifetime and I couldn't give that up to a possibility of not existing anymore. Then I think I pulled off some kind of plan to fake my own death?