you’re not you

Date: 12/22/2019

i was walking somewhere in kingswood i believe. everything was different but that’s where i felt i was. it was a summer evening all the trees were green. i was walking home or something. i saw johnny walking by. i felt a lot of things suddenly. in my dream i wanted to speak to him but knew i couldn’t. we spoke and i can’t remember what was said but it was not unfriendly like. we walked back to my house together, i was careful to not get too close. we got to my house but it wasn’t really my house. this house had this weird hangout spot in the garage that seemingly was mine. i took johnny there and he sat on the couch, he reminded me of his old self. for just a moment he was my johnny again, the whole time i was just remembering i can’t love him again because of everything he did, and reminding myself to not be fooled. but on the other half he was who i remembered, he was the same first love i had known. it was tearing at my heart. suddenly i heard my dad walk downstairs. johnny smuggly acted nonchalant like he always had but i knew he was a bit nervous. my dad came down but didn’t go to the garage, i was trying to keep him away. he ended up going in and seeing johnny. he was mad, but more understanding then he would’ve been in real life. and then johnny was gone and i woke up.