Adam and My Sister Cuddle

Date: 10/9/2019

The most emotionally charged part of my dream was Adam cuddling up to my sister and talking to her. I felt so many waves of jealousy and self pity. Why did I ever think he saw something special in me? He cuddles up to just about anyone clearly and right now he’s completely ignoring me to even say hi. There’s some sort of movie playing. There are children around. It’s a bit of an academic environment. I went to sit by an elementary aged boy who showed me a picture of himself or another fictional boy in a wheelchair. I cried as I said that boy won’t be able to put his feet on the ground again but really the tears were mostly Adam triggered. I then noticed as he was flipping a page he had a journal entry that said in scrawled letters “I don’t know if meylin makes money how will she eat food” and a sad face and it almost lifted my heart up just a little more to think someone in the world is concerned for me even if it’s a small child who can’t do anything for my financial situation. And that made me even more emotional. I wanted to tell him to not worry I’d be alright