Hanging out with Isaiah, and my brother as a child

Date: 4/12/2025

Me and Isaiah went for a hike on a bunch of rocks kind. It looked a lot like the fairburn agate beds we went to as kids, or sometimes a lot like the base of devil's tower with all the broken rocks to climb on. But it wasn't any of those places it was an imaginary location because there was a shallow lake of water nearby that you could wade in, and a dock and a bridge that you could sit where the lake got deeper. Isaiah was showing me tricks you could do on certain rock paths with either a car or a bike or something like that. We did flips and tricks and stuff. When we got back down my brother was there as a kid (he's dead irl...) playing in the water like we used to. I became a kid again too I think. There was a bong and weed under the water and he was using it or about to use it. Then I sat with Isaiah and my brother was a kid sitting with a girl he liked as a kid (her name was Angelica) and they were happy and watching a sunset together on the dock. He was showing off for her like he would for girls he liked. I felt serene watching him and happy for him. But these dreams tend to wake me up and make me highly depressed so I slept too long again today and I also felt sad because every time I am reminded of him it's like I have to banish the thought of him to stay functioning, because every time I remember him I remember that he died and only at 28. I'll be 28 next year and it absolutely sucks that I'm probably going to end up being older than my older brother ever got to be