Can’t tell if I was lucid or......

Date: 11/2/2019

I was having a dream where I was playing a video game with two people I know. The game was kinda stupid and they were taking over for me, which I didn’t like. But then the two of them got in their own rampage and began chasing each other, and I realized I was asleep. I knew I was dreaming, and I knew that my character was about to leave the picture. I quickly thought about trying to change the dream, but chose against it. So instead I made up my mind to distract the others. I pulled out a hose (I knew I could do anything I wanted— I was asleep, after all) and sprayed the heck out of them. They ran after me, and the chase was on. I ran and ran and ran. I threw open a door and knew the hallway was too short for me to have enough time to think about my game plan, so I simply made it longer. I had complete confidence in my actions, and I felt so in control. I even teleported to different areas and on high ledges with my hose that wasn’t connected to anything. It was really cool. But while this was happening, I was thinking about the dream factor. I didn’t want to wake up and ruin the moment, but I was wondering if I was having a lucid dream at all. At some points I could literally feel my real body against the bed, but my dream continued onward. I kept on running and tricking the other characters because of how fun it was. I kept wondering, “Am I asleep or are you awake and making this all up? Are you just imagining that you are asleep?” It was all very weird. I didn’t feel the vividness they say you do, but I did notice that I had no control over the other characters, which I have heard that, most times, you cannot. I do remember that section of my dream better than any of the other parts, but I did feel in control. I didn’t just follow the program, I made the program work for me. Then I was noticing my real body more and more the more I thought about it, and I really did start to wake up. And, once I was slightly awake and could move and all that stuff, I found it much harder to return to my dream. My mind kept wandering from the scene and into its own thoughts, as opposed to the never-wavering determination of my dream. I think I was dreaming and not just awake and imagining myself up a dream, and I know I had control over my person. I think I was lucid, it’s just that it was the first successful time and I was trying to figure it out while participating in a thought-consuming chase scene. Cool. It was cool. I love feeling in control. Making that hallway longer was the coolest feeling in the world, and the first time I teleported I thought, “Oh gosh I love having this much control!”