happy fucking birthday

Date: 5/10/2020

this...is a really strange dream. so it was my birthday, but i didn’t believe that it was my birthday. i don’t know why, or how, but i just didn’t. i spent the whole morning contemplating the validity of my birthday being today, it was just so strange. so, at like 2pm my bf and i went to the see the movie midsommar, which i’ve never actually seen before. for some reason, the movie was literally 6-7 hours and when we got out of the movie theatre it was like 12 am or some shit. i started bawling my eyes out because my birthday was “ruined”, apparently the movie wasn’t even that good and i wasted all of that time. like i was crying and crying and wouldn’t stop. i just don’t understand. like the movie had something to do with the ice caps which literally makes NO sense. and then i went on facebook to answer birthday wishes and started crying again bc i had “missed out” on enjoying my bday.