I don’t even know

Date: 2/2/2019

First I was in some place where we were being held captive, where we weren’t allowed to leave for some reason. There was this huge draft horse I was trying to get on but it kept running away. Then for some reason i was in school, we were going to this room where they were serving good food, and the beginning of the room was like a store with fossils and stuff. Then I kept looking for where we were supposed to go, I ended up going to wrong way and finding a big theater but it was dark and there were two guys just sitting there staring at me smiling. I ran out of there. Then I found my friends. We were in the theater and i was sitting watching with Maddy and she was laying her head on me and I wanted to kiss her but couldn’t because my dad was watching. Then I was walking through the school again, through a chemistry honors room. I was there with like two people and I was like “I wish I was honored like these student”. Then I walked into the bathroom, and there was a gross wrinkly man who was completely bald and naked and skin and bone, his skin was all messed up like scarred or something. Then there was a big spider on him and I tried drowning it. Then the man was laying on the ground and looked at me. He was really scary but had these big really pretty golden and grey eyes. I told him he had nice eyes but then he pointed back to me to say it back and I just laughed. Then I was somehow in the water shooting a scene for a video or something and this girl kept almost drowning me. Then I couldn’t get on the boat and it sank and I was calling for help. Then somehow I was just like “push the power button” and everything went black. Then I was at my dads house but I was in the alley. It was dark and nobody was there except for a white cat all the way at the end of the alley just staring at me. So then I ran as fast as I could through the gate and through the yard to the door and I tried to open it as slow as possible. I got inside and was listening and both my dad and Jill were in bed. Then kill started talking about how stuff on my computer were showing horrible things and horrible writings about therapists and cutting and then my dad came out of the room and grabbed this briefcase that was suddenly in my hand and yanked it away from me and was yelling at me. We went to the kitchen table and he was screaming st me that it was his because when he opened it he said there was a million dollars and that it was his and he was screaming and swearing at me, but I told him all I saw was a golf ball and a certificate saying I won the tournament. He didn’t believe me and sent me to my room. I said that I’m going to sleep and to leave me alone. Then I jumped on my bed and was crying but then he opened the door and threw a broken lamp and then I closed the door again. I was trying to write down what happened and I was like “I need a reality check” so I checked if I could see the date on the computer, it was all jumbled letters and said something like ashd bsgj or something random that didn’t exist. So then I was like okay now I’ll check my hands. I could see my hands when I looked down so then I thought maybe I am not dreaming. So then I looked up and there was a mirror. At first I had no reflection, then I saw myself and then tried checking my hands in the mirror but then all my fingers were just short pointy numbs and all messed up, but then my reflection was an old lady saying how horrible she had it. Her skin was all messed up, then she showed her boob and there was just a bloody hole instead of a nipple and then her boob started getting all gross and messed up. Then I said “I need to sleep I need to sleep” and then I fell asleep in my dream then woke up to real life.$