sex with my counselor

Date: 10/5/2016

I dreamt of ruddek. like I was working on a project and we were supposed to take it to him so he could critique it and skylar foster was in my group and including some other people and I had to show ruddek out project but his door was locked and skyler knocked and knocked and he finally opened being annoying and I said sorry and his wife walked out and she seemed idk and then ruddek told me to come in and the door closed and I asked if he was okay and he didn't say anything. we went downstairs where it was much quieter and he tried to discuss the project but there was something wrong with him. I sat on the table and he was like in front of me and I asked what was wrong with him and I lifted up his head. he told me him and his wife were getting s divorce, they couldn't keep living in such a shitty environment for eachother bc there was nothing holding them together anymore and I hugged him. the wife has a daughter of her own but the girl never liked ruddek no matter how hard he tried. ruddek hugged me pretty tight and I hugged him back. we ended up kissing and he pulled down my pants and we ended up having sex. he told me he's always had a thing for me and he kissed me. he seemed so happy. I was happy as well. like I wasn't scared of anything when we did it. I didn't regret it. he had taken my virginity and I felt completely fine. it felt so right atm. we talked about things and we got along pretty well. I left for a bit and next thing ik some guy is trying to kill him. it was crazy and I was freaking out. it was some guy his wife had sent. they ended up hurting ruddek pretty badly. I was crying and he was in grave danger. I was scared that I was going to lose him but I didn't know what to do. before the whole thing happened with him, jashianette had kissed me. I was annoyed she did that with me and hunter was pissed at me for it. Hunter and I supposably had a thing. but we didn't. he wanted me all to himself. he tried to kiss me and I pushed him away. and that's when I headed into ruddeks office and I told him what was going on and he decided to open up to me about what happened