Creative Writing On The Battlefield

Date: 10/10/2022

I had a very vivid dream. Sadly I was not lucid in this one, or I would have definitely done more, given the situation. A little back story: in real life, before the pandemic hit, I was attending creative writing class at the Arizona Center for the blind in Phoenix. I had a really nice teacher who was there for most of it, named Anna Marie. I would cover for her sometimes. She left in January 2019, and the person they chose to take over for her, and I was upset at first, they didn’t choose me, because I put a lot of blood, sweat, and tears into that class. Anyway, the person they chose was nice, but it was not as fun as when Anna Marie was teaching. Anyway, in my dream, the center reopened, and I signed up for creative writing again. The teacher this time, was a man named Michael, who had moved to America from England in search of a better life. Robbie, a friend who I met in Anna Marie’s class in real life, was also there in the dream. I had to tell a story that mixed romance with history. I decided to write about a gay soldier on the battlefield. He met his boyfriend when he went to the army, and started training. They were in the same battalion, in the same group of soldiers, fighting the same war. I’m thinking this was either in Iraq or Afghanistan. But I know they had to keep their gayness a secret. This was during the don’t ask, don’t tell policy, before it was revoked by Obama. Anyway, in the story, they had an argument, and had said some very harsh words to each other. But before they could make amends, the soldier’s boyfriend was killed in action by enemy fire. This soldier had to live with that guilt for the rest of his life. The moral to that story, and the message I was trying to convey to everyone, was always try to make things right with your loved ones, because you never know when they’re going to be taken from you. I had to learn that lesson the hard way in real life. I wasn’t in the military, but I had a fight with my sister, Meagan, and little did I know that she would be taken from me a year and 9 months later. I had plenty of chances to make things right, but I didn’t take them, because I was both too scared and too bitter. Now I’ll never have the chance to fix things with her physically in this lifetime. We have talked in the astral, and I feel that she has forgiven me, but I still carry that regret. It’s not an easy thing to get rid of. So that’s why I wrote the story I did in the dream. Even though it was a sad story, the goal was to show people how precious life is, and it should never be taken for granted, because it could be taken away from your loved one, just like that, and you never know when your number is going to be up. So always always always do your damnedest to make things right with your friend, your loved one, anyone you care about when you get into an argument, because you never know. When I explained to Michael and the class what my story was about, the class murmured in curiosity, but Michael reacted very badly. His demeanor completely changed, and he became this very rude person. He was attacking me verbally, telling me how rude I was, and did I know what a dead gay person smelled like. I was confused and hurt that he would act in that manner. I was only trying to demonstrate a very important life lesson in the form of romance and history. I just shook my head. Anna Marie wouldn’t have acted that way. I’ve told many a story in her class, some with cursing, talk of sex, though not too graphic, as we’re all adults, and she gave me that freedom to fully express myself. Why was Michael acting like this? The class went on, and everyone was getting their stories told, and he was criticizing other people’s stories, and what a bad job they did. But he never gave me a chance to tell my story, even after I offered to make it better. The alternative story was this soldier was married, and his wife caught him cheating on her with this man named Peter. He came out as gay, and his wife disowned him. Then he died in the battle, and she had to learn the hard lesson. But even after that change, it just made him angrier. He just kept talking about how rude I was, and was even calling me names in Spanish. He said something about Spanish anyway. Finally, when it came to be my turn, and I spoke up, I asked him if we could please tell my story. He’s like, not a chance. I’m like, well, you let others that you thought did a bad job narrate their stories. Isn’t it fair I get a chance to tell mine? He’s like true, but then turns to the class, and is like, how many of you want to hear the pip squeak’s story? I’m hoping the class will side with me, but the room was dead quiet. I looked around, and where there were students before just seconds ago, was now completely empty. Everyone just vanished into thin air. Michael rounds on me, and is like, well, I guess you got your answer. Nobody wants to hear it. I’m thinking to myself, well fine, I’ll send my story to Robbie. At least he wouldn’t put me down, and criticize me in that way. He has always thought I was a talented writer, and has never put down my work. I’m getting ready to leave his class, and never come back, but then, something tells me to stay. I felt like this telepathic pulse, I guess you could call it. Michael was about to show me something. I got these telepathic visions. It was like I was seeing a movie. Almost like in Harry Potter, where there was a magic bowl, and you could visit someone’s memory, but you’d be invisible to them, except this was different. I didn’t travel through the memory bowl, and teleport into the scene. This time, I was given a direct telepathic connection, and his memories were like a movie in my head. Suddenly, I understood everything. The reason he reacted the way that he did was because this was his life. He knew he was gay from a very young age. However, his family, who had immigrated to the UK for a better life, were very strict Muslims. They were Iranian immigrants. They were strongly against the LGBTQ. Knowing this, he did his best to keep it secret from them, but they found out. Someone saw him kissing another boy at school, and word got out to his parents. Furious at what he had done, they disowned him, and kicked him out of the house. I also sensed that they threatened his life if he dared even try to come back with that gay act of his. Sobbing uncontrollably, he packed his bags, and fled to America, in hopes for a better future. The army made a deal with him that if he insisted, he would be granted citizenship, and they would pay for him to go to school, so he took that deal. While he was in training, he met and fell in love with another man in his group. They had plans to move in together, after they had finished their services in the army, but unfortunately, it wasn’t meant to be. His boyfriend was shot and killed by enemy fire, and he was devastated. He finally finished his military duties, and went to school and got his teaching degree, but life was never the same after that. He lived all alone, and he was never over the loss of his long lost love. I saw very vivid images flash before my eyes. Images of war. People getting shot, stabbed, stepping into a trap that would trigger a bomb. It was not a pretty sight. Once that was over, I sensed he was in tears. I felt so sorry for him. No wonder he had the reaction he had. I had brought up a sore subject for him, and had no idea. I woke up before I could do anything else, but if I had been lucid, and in the dream for a while, I would have given him a hug, and we could have gone through this together. Sometimes, it’s easy to say, that person is so rude, and I don’t want to see them again, but the truth is, you don’t know their story. You don’t know what they have gone through. Maybe they might have gone through something traumatic. Moral of the story, even if it’s hard to do, love everyone, and show compassion. You never know what you might receive in return.

AI generated interpretation Based on the details of your dream, it appears to reflect certain unresolved emotions and lessons from your real-life experiences, as well as your capacity for empathy and understanding. The dream begins with the reopening of the creative writing class, indicating a desire to revisit and continue your passion for writing and self-expression. However, the shift in teachers from Anna Marie to Michael represents a change in dynamics and experience. This change may symbolize your expectations and disappointments when others do not meet your hopes or replicate the same supportive environment you had with Anna Marie. The storyline of the soldier on the battlefield serves as a metaphor for the importance of resolving conflicts and making amends with loved ones before it's too late. This theme may resonate with your personal regret over the unresolved issues you had with your sister before her passing. The dream reflects your desire to convey this important message to others and highlights the significance of valuing and appreciating the people we have in our lives. The negative reaction and verbal attacks from Michael in the dream reveal your real-life frustration and confusion when encountering someone who reacts harshly, particularly when you are trying to express yourself creatively and emotionally. However, the dramatic shift in his attitude suggests that there may be deeper personal reasons for his behavior. The subsequent discovery of Michael's personal history and trauma explains his unexpected reaction. The dream presents an opportunity for you to understand the motivations behind his actions and encourages compassion and empathy, despite initial negative encounters. This realization underscores the importance of considering others' perspectives and understanding their unique struggles. The visions of war and the soldier's tragic love story in the dream evoke strong emotions and emphasize the potential impact of personal experiences on an individual's worldview and interactions with others. The dream emphasizes the complexity and multidimensionality of people's lives, often hidden beneath the surface. In conclusion, your dream reflects your ongoing emotional journey, incorporating unresolved issues and the lessons you have learned from your past. It also highlights your empathy and understanding, reminding you not to judge others solely based on their outward behavior. The dream encourages you to approach interactions with love, compassion, and curiosity, acknowledging that everyone carries their own hidden stories and struggles.