I can’t explain (but l.. was told) raw and uncensored

Date: 3/13/2019

So I had a dream about someone I tried to erase from my mind but then I realized that there still there for so reason so I was dreaming “we was texting and chatting then he told me to come over so I went over there and he was there with his nephews and cousins as I remember but anyways so we starting kissing I assume bc it skipped right to us having sex and I don’t understand why I would have a dream about me and him fucking but it was good sex one that I needed and I wanted it to be real so bad but I snapped out of it bc I don’t want to hurt my boyfriend and I love him very much but I need some dick like that and the crazy part is I have a boyfriend who still kinda thinks I have feelings for him but I don’t it’s just his dick I want but dick ain’t that good to ruin my relationship I love.The dream was good after all his mother came in and caught me there we wasn’t doing anything I don’t remover but she was hella mad bc he always brings girls there and she know what they be doing but anyways when we was fucking it was like we was talking to his cousin and nephew they was playing the game but I think we was in a different room I hope anyways his mother started throwing shit so I was like it’s time for me to go so I left I met her before I believe she remembered me even doe she’s kinda blind so he has told me but after that I woke up I didn’t understand why i had that dream but I instantly went and unblock him and followed him but still I’m doing all this and I have a boyfriend my overall question is “have I gotten over this person or am I longing for him and loving another at the same time?” Anybody have answers