Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 4/23/2019
By fluffytree
I dreamt I it was nighttime and I found myself wandering through some subway in what could've been any city like NY, Chicago or whatever other US city that has public trains. I got on some train when I spotted my sometimes friend who is also kind of my ex too (it's very complicated) but only briefly before I got whisked off to some other random location. Now I found myself in a college classroom that was in session before being transported yet again. This time I was at my old house where it was a sunny and warm spring day. Or maybe it was night? I feel like it was daytime when I started the dream but nighttime by the time I finished. Anyway my ex showed up here again and didn't look happy. She looked distraught and disappointed, even a little angry. I assumed it was in regards to me since I tend to irritate her pretty easily, granted she is also an extremely sensitive person so it's impossible not to step on her buttons/triggers from time to time. I was hanging out with my family for awhile and she just sat there never changing her expression. Then she leaves to go upstairs to where my grandmother and aunt lived and I got a bad feeling. Suddenly I could feel her emotions and her intentions. She wanted to hurt me in a very specific way in order to feel like retribution was served for all the things I've said and done to her in the past that she still feels hurt over. So in her mind she wanted to expose all my secrets I've ever told to her to my family and friends, but then she thought how that'd be too easy and instead began making a strange wish that didn't make sense to me but felt like it was something on the border of omnipresence. When I snapped back to the dream reality I saw her standing at the door smiling sinisterly and it was a Thanos "snap" moment where I realized something major had changed but wasn't sure what. Before I asked her what she'd done she vanished into thin air. I looked behind me to see her standing with my mom smiling and having a conversation. It was odd like looking at a different person because neither her nor my mom like each other at all. Then I hear someone coming down the stairs with my grandmother and it was her again but looked much younger, this version of her looked about 20, which is around the age when k met her, and she also was extremely nice and sweet the way she was back then too. She saw me and smiled before hugging me. I was so confused and looked back to see that there really were now two of her. I got scared thinking she must've made some wish to either make everyone in the world literally her, or to create multiple versions of herself based on all the different facets of her personality. Then my grandmother came down and she was completely back to her old self. No more being confined to a hospital bed with severe brain damage. My ex had actually brought her back although I was confused as to why. I hugged my grandmother and began to cry in happiness even though I knew it was probably not gonna last and may be an illusion. I believe apart of me was beginning to suspect that I was dreaming. I decided to go outside to see what else had changed, looking to see if I spotted anymore copies of my ex but I didn't motive) notice anything. I did begin to see something odd though. There was a guy nearby walking his golden Labrador but when I looked away and looked back it was now a white wooly sheepdog of sorts. More of these same dogs began showing up down the street and I realized that these types of dogs were my exes favorite type (although in actuality I have no idea what her favorite dog is, just made sense in the dream). Was she doing this to mess with my head? Changing the world into all the things that she likes? If so then it made me wonder what would happen to me and if her endgoal was to make me suffer and vanish from existence or what. At that moment I was whisked away to yet another dream before I could find out. In my final dream for the night I now found myself at my job building working a Sunday morning shift during a cold snowy day, only my building was vastly different. I was stationed in a very large and empty lobby at a security desk when in the real world I'm in an office in the lobby in an office building. This place looked like a big library. It was so quiet here too save for the general creaks of the building and the howling of the fierce wind and snow outside beating against the walls. I sat here for a little while still carrying my worries from the previous dream, but the memory of it was getting really hazy. Then the door opened up and a girl stepped inside. I went over to greet her only to find that it was my friend J. She looked serious and I could tell wanted to talk to me about something. Finally she admitted that she heard from my ex about all the things I did to her and wanted me to explain myself. Thinking back this is odd because she already knows since most of the hurt centers around when I had feelings for her instead of my ex years ago anyway. But we sat there talking about it again as if it was for the first time and she understood. I think I told her that I still have feelings for her too which in reality is also not true. This was our first real world meetup though and it was going really well. I suggested that maybe we should start talking on the phone, but then her boyfriend walked in. I met and spoke to him for the first here as well. We didn't talk long, but he just came to take her to see a movie. That's when I realized I worked at a movie theater and people had to come to me first before walking through the double doors behind me that had all the theaters. He went on ahead but she stayed behind to continue talking to me. Eventually I walked her out where we said goodbye and then I realized that she left without her bf. Maybe she didn't want to see a movie with him since sometimes she does seem to want her space. I woke up shortly afterwards though.