Suicide dreams?

Date: 10/1/2016

I keep having dreams that I'll vividly remeber of me killing myself in the most brutal ways I can, some or as simple as taking a full bottle of something, other times it's something else, and I always end up on the phone with someone telling them how much I love them or just recalling memories, it's mostly the same person but sometimes it's different people, and it's like everything fades to black, I hear screams and I wake up abruptly and shaken up. I don't know if there's a special meaning to it but it happens often.