Insane

Date: 10/30/2018

So the setting kept switching between this huge beautiful hotel room and my dads house. But every time it switched I didn’t care. So the first part was my dog snickers was there. She died like almost 10 years ago and she died again in my dream but she stayed on my living room couch for like a month. That’s the first time iv ever had a dream where a lot of time went by before picking back up again. So I’m walking by the couch and the dog that’s been dead and not decomposing gets up and starts walking around and I’m totally terrified. She comes over to me and I know she wants pets but I’m so scared. Then my dad gets to the room and it’s back to a hotel room and I tell him about snickers and he’s like “well it’s not my problem” and I flip out and he’s starts yelling at me. Calling me worthless and that I’ll never amount to anything and I call him a piece of shit father and that he never does anything. My mom and brother come over. And my mom and dad are divorced so this was weird but basically my dad doesn’t believe that snickers was running around and my mom said she saw her so finally my dad storms off to take her to the vet. And I’m so furious because he was treating me like he usually treats me. One of the reasons we barely talk anymore. So now iv got this big huge hotel room to myself. There’s a huge king sized bed in the middle of the living room and I decide to lay in it because I’m stressed. And all of a sudden the ceiling above me there’s this beam that goes from one side of the ceiling to the other starts leaking water. Like tons and tons of water is pouring into my room. It takes me while a to call maintenance because I can’t figure out dream phone. Maintenance comes and there’s a whole crew. They replace my bed and fix the ceiling. And I realize I have a balcony that over looks the pool. The next part I realize I can do whatever I want. I don’t realize it’s a dream but I’m somehow in this world I can do anything so I run outside this hotel without paying and the hotel is connected to a mall so I run through this empty mall and run down the escalators and out to the parking lot and some lady left her keys in her white 2 door car so I took it. And I was a little scared because I just stole a car. But I also was trying to remind myself I was in a world without consequences. Oh yeah for some reason I was re-enacting a Star Wars battle scene with a bunch of people before I took off. So I’m driving around aimlessly scared excited and still mad about my interaction with my father. I come across my elementary school best friend. And shes talking to me about a party she’s setting up and that doesn’t interest me so I move on. And this is where it gets confusing. So present me ends up in some weird time shift where I’m in my old room at my parents house back when I was 16. I can see my mom and hear her but she can’t hear or see me. So it’s back on the day I first tried to kill myself. And it was basically her reading my note which was heart breaking and freaking out and I just wanted to let her know I would be ok. That it doesn’t work but she can’t hear me. So I find some little paper that I fold into some weird phone and call her. She’s like “who is this I can’t really hear you” and I’m like shouting and crying for her to realize I was just young and depressed and it wasn’t her fault. So I try to text her on my real phone and the texts go through expect it’s completely different then what I sent. It was basically “at tristons house drug deal went bad help” (I don’t know a triston) and I’m pulled from that weird time shift and I’m in “tristons” house with a gun pointed at me. And some guy yelling give me all your money!!! And these guys with masks are trashing this house looking for drugs and money. I was so confused why I was there but I was ok because I knew my mom would help. I don’t think that ever got resolved because all of a sudden I was back at that hotel about to go swimming. And it was a huge beautiful pool and there were paintings all along the walls of the pool.