Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 8/30/2018
By nexus
so i would say over half of my dreams are astral projections and the other half is lucid dreams, looking back from whem i first started posting a year and a half ago i can really see my progression. For a while i have been on the same level of skill, i would pre-plan my adventure and either decide to have an o.b.e or lucid dream it didnt work every single time but frequently enough for me to right about. i still consider myself either a late stage beginner or an early stage intermediate but last night had definitely sprung me up a couple levels. I could astral project about 7/10 times meaning im more likely to succeed than fail but the ladder was still a possibility, a couple things had left me in that bubble, one was fear...i had to overcome a lot of fear from my childhood and fear of the unknown which still had bothered me till just a couple hours ago, i realized my progression would be frozen till i faced these fears and so i did, i would usually hear things and sense things in my room and they got louder and more defined the longer i closed my eyes and i wiuld eventually open them because i couldnt tell if it was actually in my room at that point but me facing this fear granted me a new ability which will definetly help me out a lot, i can now summon and control the vibratione to a whole new degree, its kind of funny it reminds me of a video game when a character completes a mission and gets rewarded a new perk, my mission being fear and my perk being vibe control. im able to raise them to a highet frequency or lower just with a thought which before i didnt have a lot of control over, also i now can "sense" them without having to hear them, let me elaborate. Before i would need near absolute silence and i will eventually pick up the vibrations but last night was about as noisy as it can get and i could still activate them, its no longer a sound i hear but more of a feeling throughout my body that i can trigger even when awake now another i found out last night was that the higher and faster the vibrations were going the more likely i would stay conscious and astral project. The crazy thing is i achieved all of this i percieved as a gift from my higher conscious, after a while being in this trance like state the higher conscious and the base conscious merge and so with this temporary merge i have this intuitive knowledge and skill i didnt know i had and so my higher self passed down this ability to me. The pros of having this new control is i could potentially astral project faster and for longer, i can trigger it anytime and i can go to more complex and awesome places the only potential con i can see is that i percieved that after i opened this door, its not closing anytime soon aka ever. if i was tired one day and just wanted a simple nights rest with no interuptions (vibes or o.b.e) this could be difficult but the way i see it, it could be used as a fall back incase i am extremely lazy that day and just hope it happens, it just might though id rather perfect my technique instead of winging it. Last night i had both lucid dream and astral projection, after what felt like an hour of testing out the new skills constantly shifting phase i instantly snap out of body and i am flying what looked and felt like near the speed of sound in this distorted river with the city coming closer i ask for more clarity and the only way for people to understand how amazing it felt was if i said to imagine yourself going about your day until you realized that you now have the power of flight and you find yourself zooming at break neck speeds, thats how real and profound the experience was, it would make no difference if i could actually fly or not, it felt the same...as i got to the city it actually started to phase out of existence or maybe i was and i found myself with a second "power up", i've reached the stage of astral projection where it is completely alien to human experiences, i cant fully describe this world since i have nothing to base it off of that's remotely similar to human life, this was the stage that makes people understand that there is so much to be explained and really just how little we really know but as i push to get people to understand i will try my best to relay what i went through. Im in this void where if i look with my "eyes" it nothing but static that echoes around the void indefinitely, if i were to try and percieve things, the space around me would start to morph suggesting that i was in a space where thought becomes reality but i realized i dont want to humanize whats going in it wiuld be better for me to take in the environment instead of influencing it, i start to lose my physical form (i looked like myself in real life but started to let go of that shape and became whatever felt natural) slowly, beings started to show up as i lost human shape i then started changing size and shape to an infinite speed, i couldnt keep up with, the rest of void and the beings started changing to, it reminded me of a dmt experience and they communicate with me but not with words but more like i sensed the intent and we had an understanding, the shapeless beings felt familiar, they mightve been those I've known forever, ir new ones but in that moment it made ni difference, the way tgey communicated it was like you unlocking 100% of your memory and relaying every detail of your life to me in mere seconds and vice versa, it was insane as i returned to the physical (i sensed i had to go back and that ive been out long enough for tonight) i try to keep all there "memories" with me but as im now a human again i only have like flashes of incomprehensible things, its like i have all the data but not the write software to access it, perhaps my higher self is holding it for when i need it like an adult with a surprise for its child. i fell into a dream that was only mentally lucid meaning in my head i knew i was dreaming but i didnt control anything and let the dream flow. i realise the more i alienate from this physical self the longer i can astral project but also the more strange it becomes.