Rejected by crush x3 times

Date: 9/30/2018

So I was at some summer camp with my crush Claire and I was literally trying to help her with everything and kept trying to make a move but it never worked. Like we were at a camp fire and I was like “can I sit here?” And she was like “um no my F I E N D (probs her secret gf) Is sitting there” so I walked away sadly and later that night she couldn’t zip her sleeping bag so I asked if she needed any help and she made it obvious she didn’t want help from me. The next night I had a dream that she and me were in a huge dating place where you and like 6 other people stay in a place where you meet your ‘true love’. Everyone thought I was straight but I was lesbian so when some weird guy came up to me and handed me a condom after asking if I wanna fk I was disgusted and ran off after throwing the condom in a bush! After that I finally got the courage to ask out my crush in my dream and we went to a restaurant and we were teasing each other and she hid both our faces under her hoodie, so I leaned in for a kiss and she left the table giggling and I fell on the floor. Fuckkk bro