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Date: 10/5/2022

-i was gonna go to a movie college was showing with eleanor but ig we were going separately and i ended up finding a dog??? that looked like smuj so i was like wait is he lost did he run away but i think it was just a similar looking dog (smuj is a cat. what) -we all went to this canoeing lake in the evening but we just had a car and they drove the car off the dock into the lake but that’s what ur supposed to do ig so we just drove there (and out back to a grassy path) to see everyone canoeing -biking but car bike and didn’t fully know where i was going. i kept turning although i could barely reach the pedals so it was hard to drive and then no one was telling me where to go and then i looked and they both had ditched me. i got off and they were on the very steep grassy hill yard chilling and walking around and i was like guys wtf while i kept falling off the grass a little -i had a baby…i miss the baby now. i don’t remember how i got it but i was pregnant and then i had the baby and actually it looked like one of the turtle rock kids. i was even trying to sit next to her sometimes instead of hold her all the time and then she did the thing that that one baby does and started crying immediately when i put her next to me. i was trying to remember how many days ago i had the baby bc i wanted to know if i could give her a bath but i was like it’s only me with adhd raising her this is hard and i asked kelly if she remembered the day she was born but she wouldn’t give me a straight answer. i looked in my calendar but it wasn’t there. idk. i looked back at her and she started crying her first tear and it was extremely big and thick and studio ghibli esque idk but also came out really slow. and then she did another tear and that was it. and then i realized neither of us had eaten or…idk what the other one was but i was like maybe bathing is a lesser priority rn. -i woke up like aw i don’t have a kid dang and went back to sleep -i had my own big room and was decorating it and i had 2 different dressers and i had a bunch of different rugs and i had -i went outside for something and walked back over and we were living 2 houses down from my dad’s old house and i stood there and stared at it a bit and then kept walking bc i didn’t want them to see me staring at it. it was still painted light blue but there was a nice upper middle class suv parked out front. -it was winter and i was outside checking out the back yard. i peaked at the yard next to ours and it was decent but sorta small with a lot of trees. idk not necessarily small but it was no my dad’s yard or close to that. i looked at our yard again and it was slightly better and it had fencing around it and trees around the back so i thought with something i could make the fence not be able to see in. i looked at the -i was half sleeping and this guy was there and i was telling him about a greek goddess who put makeup on and he was being sexist about it. i told him something she did and he interpreted it the dumbest way and i was like bro ur dumb and sexist and her eyeliner was fire. -i decided to add a couple more flower rugs/cushions to my room and i was thinking about how to put them in the best pattern. for some reason i had a bunch of dark green flowers. i think they were less expensive than the pink ones but now i was like dang i need more pink. i had my light wood colored dresser that i used more on the end of my bed but decided to change its placement with the other dresser that was slightly smaller and realized it actually did work bc the thing that one was against was bigger on the opposite side so i could put it over there. also there were these bars next to my bed that i wasn’t sure what they were for. they pulled out of the wall and were a deep [ shape and were supposed to hold something i think and i was like idk maybe towels but i decided to not put anything there. i also was like maybe i should get a dining room type of chair or something. -also will and ana were older and will kept climbing and walking on the top of the fences and had long hair and all of the neighborhood pets were super loud except for one idk which one. -back to outside my new house tho, was in the backyard/basement and saw we had 3 things that looked like sleds and kelly texted me as i was walking over saying new ppl were moving in soon above us. this guy got to the backyard and started using the sled as a scraper and it was a basement now and he was like this is really difficult i’m just getting the bigger pieces of the gross part of the ceiling and i was like ok and i started using a fork then got a larger fork (the rainbowy ones) to do it more detailed. then we sat down and kelly got there and he started eating nice sushi and then dropped the nice one and i was like !!!!! i will eat that if u don’t want it now and he was like go for it and it had a few hairs but i ate it and it was really good and had some orange fish eggs on it even.