kai’s other girlfriend

Date: 9/21/2024

i haven’t been writing down any dreams even though i’ve had them like everyday from sleeping in cause i still have no job :,(. but im having trouble remembering them in good detail and i’ve been lazy. well this morning at like 8am ish i had quite the experience. kai was like “ok so you’re about to come live with me but there’s soemtning you should know, i have another girlfriend here and i want to maintain having two girlfriends.” i was shocked ! but i already made all the arrangements to live with him and for some reason i just said ok lets see how it goes. well i moved into a large house kind of dorm style. kai and i shared a bedroom and slept together every night. but he had this other girlfriend who was this really thin asian girl who was super tiny and kinda looked like Rose from 90 day fiancé. but a bit prettier sorry Rose. and i would see them like chatting and looking at eachother lovingly sometimes which made me a bit unsettled. one day we all went to go get dinner together and we were waking through a mall first. well i saw a build a bear store and i was like ohhh we should take a look in there. but i knew kai would think its dumb and then the two of them were standing together as if they were my parents or something and they felt better than me. like i was an immature child or so they looked at me. well we went into another shop like a clothing store or soemtning and i said him with his arm around her hugging her and i was like D: no. i immediately decided i was done right then and there so i ran out of the shop and onto the street. the street was one of those ones that look like ur outside an airport with another road above ur head and too much traffic. i really had no where to go and no way to get around the city. i tried to sneak back into the mall to use it to find another place to go but they saw me. one of our mutual friends some punk girl came up to me and was berating me for being jealous and not accepting the situation. i was shocked! i was like girl im sorry ive been struck with disgust and that wasn’t something i predicted. have some sympathy!! she was with some other people that were also mutual friends i suppose and they all stood back in the shops kind of glaring at me with mild disgust. kai and the other girlfriend who’s name was soemtning like Maria by the way, came up to me. they were like - what’s the problem! you don’t want to see me and maria together? i told you the situation before you came here so you can’t be mad about it. i was like im not mad about it i just don’t want to do it and i don’t have to so fuckkkk of. and kai was like “but i want you!” and i was like yea you can’t have both of us, i can make it easy and you can have her and i’ll leave no problem but im not doing this. i felt like even though kai was sleeping with me every night it was just because i was new there and i had a feeling he was gonna start sharing his sleeping space between us more and more or trying to bring us girls closer together. i was outraged! it had felt like it was just us even though i knew he had another girlfriend before i actually saw them together. kai was like “you’re really gonna make me chose between you?!” and maria was looking disapprovingly at me but also kind of smirking like she won and like she was the best girlfriend because she was okay with all this junk. so i ended up taking a train to who knows where and i’m sitting there and see jergen with his legs up taking up about three chairs. i was like :3 oh great , he was reading a newspaper. jergen was acting all wise , i was trying to get him to understand why i was upset and he was like “but wasn’t this your choice, weren’t you aware of what you were doing” and he just kept reading his paper while he spoke. i felt defeated.