My old lover

Date: 11/26/2018

Once upon a time I had a crush on the girl I met online and she didn’t live that far away just a state away I guess it was foolish to believe it could work out at my young age but I wanted to believe that I could make it work A few years later she stopped talking to me for good, she was very suicidal and I was beginning to worry so I ran away from home I didn’t care how far away she was or even if I didn’t know exactly where she was my plan was to follow my heart and ask everyone I met if they knew where I could find her I got lost and ended up getting turned around and found my way back home so I figured maybe nobody noticed I was gone but I was in huge trouble Recently last night I dreamt that she showed up at my window and I had no idea what to do For some reason my cousin was doing the same My cousin came inside and told my parents that he was here to pick me up (at 5 in the morning?) so I asked him what was going on He said she was riding her bike and she hit a ditch and her bike was broken and all she wanted was to get home So my cousin was kind enough to take her home (he’d never irl) I was getting ready and I was taking a little long so I figured I had enough time to finish my drink When I went outside the car was leaving and my cousin was coming in He said there was a green map inside his dashboard from when his dad went somewhere and she could use it to find her way home My cousin gave her his car and keys to some stranger because I cared so much for her Waking up I realized I never got to do the things I wanted with her and she was gone before I had realized Maybe if I wasn’t so embarrassed by my parents by the thought of them knowing who I liked of the thought of them embarrassing me with knowledge they have on me like they always do Then maybe I could’ve convinced her to stay even if it was just a dream