weird

Date: 7/16/2018

I had a dream that I was being bullied by a few people - a girl who made a song about me calling me a slut, a guy who was popular and cute who went along with what was going on, and a cute girl who ended up falling in love with the guy. I was in a park and the first girl and her gang come up and starting talking shit, and shows me the song she made. I walk away, alone, in tears, as she screams the song at me I go to a school with tons of people, and as we are going through what seems to be like a school parade, the girl puts the song on and everyone laughs and points. I take it in, say yup I'm a slut, and dance around and have people take pictures of me and laugh at me. by the time the parade is over (we were on a bridge idk) I was crying. i remember going into the corner of a locker room (assuming I'm at school - I go to college but this is like a high school) and I just start bawling. like I can feel myself crying in this dream, its deep and emotional. I feel the urge to want to die. both girl #1 and now girl #2 comes up to me and basically said I deserved this. so I want to kill myself even more now. as I'm walking to my car to probably kill myself, I bump into the guy, who can tell im visibly upset, but does nothing. I yell at him to get into the car. girl #2 hears this and comes over, and they both get into a car. I take them to a graveyard. next to the graveyard are a bunch of kids playing pre school baseball, and theres a little party going on for that. people are eating food and enjoying life as they sit next to the dead. we get out of the car and have to sidepass our way through the party to get to the graveyard. the cute girl and guy exchange pleasantries with the kids and the party goers. I head straight to the graveyard I remember screaming but nobody hearing me, seeing the girl and the guy make out in the graveyard, and then only after I try to slit my throat do they become "concerned" and start to look at the tombstones. idk why but there were a lot of sorority sisters tombstones there. the party ends and people from the party come over and hand us out cake we all eat the cake and I pretend to the kids that I'm fine and fabulous and that nothing ever happened and then I woke up 😊