Date: 9/13/2019
By Avra
It all began with me and Carlos going to get him a vasectomy. The doctors attached him to a strange device that was going to puncture his kidneys and simultaneously drain his semen. (I found this strange because the kidneys have nothing to do with this procedure but the doctor insisted). We decided last second to freeze some of his sperm in case we ever decide to have children in the future. (Side plot 1) Ive been sleeping with a man named Logan behind Carlos's back but I tell him we need to stop because it isn't fair to Carlos. He agrees with me but he kisses me one last time. (Side plot 2) I have an assignment due for an English class but haven't done it yet and the due date is just days away. Carlos is suddenly also Freddie Mercury (like its fully Carlos but my brain also recognizes and describes him as Freddie Mercury througout the dream). I find out he died of a heroin overdose and begin to have a complete breakdown. I cry and scream and break down at every memory of him. At one point I'm at Sara's old house for a gathering and they ask me where Carlos is since I always bring him with me and I break down and tell them he's dead and just sob and relive memories. The dream randomly flashes to my mom offering to show me a video. It shows Carlos in a strange green uniform (face painted green and everything) in a small green shed/outhouse. I realize it's footage of him dying and break down again. The video shows him injecting the heroin into his heart. I decide to try and get pregnant with his frozen sperm that I remembered in that moment we stored away earlier. The last thing I remember is the dream shifting back to my school project and me asking for an extension but the professor is only willing to give me one day extra.